The Truth that Lies Inside

Another nasyeed worth to ponder...

I've just found this nasyeed.. and really think that it echoes my own fears, dreams and hopes.. the fear of becoming the real 'me', unmasking my disguise.  Perhaps it is a fear that many of us have had... Sometimes, we pretend to be others, just to 'fit in' and feel we belong.  Just hope that we can unmask ourselves more... for what really counts is not really what we are, as others see us, but who we really are inside, as Allah sees us...

Title: The Truth That Lies Inside 

(the title posted at You Tube is not the right one.. )

By: Br Dawud Wharnsby Ali

You smile in the two way mirror of my eyes.

I put on my faith like I wear a disguise.

You can’t see my soul, see the life that I live.

But I show you the mask of the best I can give.

hid here, afraid, like a child behind,

the truth of the thoughts that clutter my mind.

What if you knew, about all that I do?

The things that I think... the “me” that is true?

Would you call me a hypocrite? Call me a liar?

Would you curse out my name?

Would you damn me to fire?

Would you know what to say?

Would you just walk away, afraid the “me” I’ve tried to hide,

would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

I’ve been looking for answers since becoming adult,

not looking for dogma to live like a cult.

Been looking to live, been living to find,

freedom from cages that limit my mind.

Would you call me a hypocrite? Call me a liar?

Would you curse out my name?

Would you damn me to fire?

Would you know what to say?

Would you just walk away, afraid the “me” I’ve tried to hide,

would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

I’ve been running and hiking and dreaming of flying,

but falling and stumbling never shadowed my trying.

So now here I am before God and you,

showing my face and my true self to you.

I’m not sacred of God, I trust God understands,

but I‘m wandering if you will still offer your hands.

Will I scare you? Upset you? Frustrate you? Irrate you?

Challenge your lifestyle or weaken your trust?

Or will you see my effort? My passion? Sincerity?

Will you see just a little of yourself in me?

Will you take off your mask so we can be free?

Would you call me a hypocrite? Call me a liar?

Would you curse out my name?

Would you damn me to fire?

Would you know what to say?

Would you just walk away, afraid the “me” I’ve tried to hide,

would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?