Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I'm Back! (^_~)

Assalamualaikum everyone!

Alhamdulillah, I'm back after a long (or.. really long) period of hiatus.  Back with a renewed spirit.  Where have I been these past months?  No, I was not too busy, nor was I at a place void of any internet connection.  I went on a month-long practical training after the final exams, then enjoyed the rest of my holiday with my family.

The truth is... I haven't been updating because I've been.. well, soul searching, I guess.  A principle I hold when writing on this blog is, that I write, when I have a purpose, and something valuable to share.  Which is why when my heart is not set right, when the level of my imaan is low, I decide to remain silent.  It is not that I don't want to write, but rather, I was unable to write then.  Perhaps it is because of the principle, or just because, I can't give what I don't have.

Well, alhamdulillah, here I am again. Sometimes, it is good to step back for a while, and analyze yourself, what you had done, and your motives.  At times you also need a friend to remind you, which alhamdulillah, a close friend of mine had.  

When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows 

Yeah, trying to climb back up, once you're down.. it ain't easy.  Never will be, either.  Yet Allah is always there.  He knows the efforts you put in.  He knows that you've tried your best.  It does not matter if your best, is not as good as others are, nor does it matter that your friends do not care.  But He knows... and He loves people who try to get closer to him, and try to be better servants to Allah, the Almighty.

Today, I would only like to share a really short story, for us all to reflect upon.  As I was going out of my apartment for a bit of shopping, I fumbled with the keys and turn the lock on the front door.  A thought strikes me:  

"These simple tasks that we do every day, like locking the door, turning the door knob, tying our shoe laces... these little things, actually involve so many complex mechanisms.  The feedback from our brain to the muscles, the amount of acetylcholine released by the muscles, the pumping systems of the neurotransmitters... and the list goes on.  Yet our body still does all this small, insignificant, but complex things with such precision!  Indeed, Allah does love us a lot, to allow us to do so much, with so little thinking to accompany the tasks.  He had made life so much simpler than what it could be, if everything was made difficult (erm.. i know, the sentence sounds weird..).  

Allah loves us a lot, you and me.  So why should we hesitate to put His love, above all else, too?  Why should we neglect to put much effort into getting acquainted with Him, and submit ourselves fully to His orders? "

So.. this is just a fragment of my thought then, decide to share because I care, and to remind myself too, lest I forget, in the near future.

O Allah, set our hearts to remain firm on Your deen, keep us close to You, until the end~