Thursday, November 27, 2008



Lost… somewhere in the mist.  A suffocating mist of alien emotions and unknown feelings.  What?  I’m not sure.  Honestly, I don’t know. 


This is what I am currently feeling.  Unsettled.  For a few days already, actually.  Why?  That was the same question that even I cannot answer currently.


My mind wandered on… though admittedly with its limited capabilities, it may not know enough. Yet it pondered on, in search for answers.  Meanwhile, my heart remains at its unsettled state, despite efforts upon efforts made to calm it.  Is it crying? Well… perhaps not.  Not that I can see it.  Is it bleeding, or sick?  Well, maybe. 


“It hurts… somehow…”  from somewhere inside, a small voice admitted.  And my mind took charge again.  Why is it in the particular state? 


Is my heart far from remembering Allah lately?  Did I do anything that brings His anger?  Is my amal fewer now than it was before?  Or… is it because I’m missing someone?


Still trying to figure out..

And my heart is crying… again.


Signing  off…

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

~ Some Pics of Kem Kerlipan Bintang ~

group cheer! (^_^)

GooD... (I think.. hehe..)

oh.. they're all enjoying themselves.  trying to build a high, yet stable tower using a bunch of straws.
this is during the explorace ~my checkpoint~ 

these guys are sure hard at work... building from straw is no easy task!

>> salam semut2 <<

presentation time... presentinig team name, motto and logo
each team is so creative... (not to mention some funny ones too!)

C'mon... wanna join?

Um.. bile yer ni?? ha.. jmput minum.. (a nite i won't forget!)

wonder who... hard at work.. *wink*

>> more to be posted later, insyaAllah..

Monday, November 24, 2008

>> A Camp To Remember (Part II) <<

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> We can plan, but Allah also plans.  And His plans are the best of all.


Perhaps it is something that is oft heard and repeated.  The verse seems very apt during the evening of the second day of the camp.  We had planned a number of activities for the night, but Allah knows best.  He had wanted to ‘tarbiyyah’ the students on how to really put their trust, and hope only to Allah.  How to really rely on depend on Him fully.  How is that?  Allah had planned for the night, to have three people getting ‘hysteria’ one after the other.                             

Hence, the evening was filled with ma’thurat and two rounds of Yasin.  We also get to really relate the talks and remind the students of Allah’s power over His creations, His love and the fact that He is always there for us.

Honestly, I was actually freaked out too, when the first girl got hysteria.  On top of that, I was the only girl facilitator around too!  Plus I have never experienced anyone getting hysteria when I am around before.  But Alhamdulillah, I was able to keep my cool at the time, reminding myself again and again that whatever ‘the thing’ is, Allah is much more powerful.  Coincidentally, one of the facilitator is used to dealing with this situation.  Hence we let her handle the girl, while the rest of us calm other participants and organize activities for them. 

Later on, during the post-mortem, all of us agreed that the experience is a highly valuable one indeed.


> Da’wah is an art – a business of winning people’s heart

Yup… it is an art.  An art that take years to master.  It is not a simple task to touch hearts and influence people.  Because people are not the same.  Everything is not just black and white. 

During the camp, I saw firsthand one of the art at work.  Oft times, when facing those who we perceive as bad, we tend to be hard on them, setting punishments upon punishments.  But a da’ei should be different.  Take a different outlook, and be creative with these people.  Because fire may not be put out with oil.  Thus, we should try to pour water no the fire instead.  This is the approach that the camp commander had decided to apply.   Alhamdulillah, it works.  Handling the guys who are labeled as ‘bad’ in a softer way, befriending them and talking nicely to them actually helps a lot.  The impact?  They are willing to join in all the activities, even help out in cleaning up.  Also, after the hysteria case, the facilitators actually succeed in getting these guys to pray.  In the end, I think that most of them are not really bad.  Maybe naughty, yes, but not bad.  All they need is to be given a chance to prove themselves.  And someone who actually care.


> Obtaining perfection is impossible, but all the way to perfection, you’ll gain excellence

Tribute to sis Hlovate, for sharing this quote in ‘Versus’.  I love this quote a lot, and shared it a few times with my friends and the participants of the camp.  Yes, we all hope to be perfect, but sometimes, it seems so far and impossible to achieve.  However, if we go on trying, in the end, we’ll excel, though we can never be perfect. 

This is my hope for the participants.  I know they are all far from perfection.  Yet I hope that they can improve, gain more knowledge, learn to control themselves, try to be better sons and daughters to their parents, better students and study harder, and most importantly, be better servants to Allah, our Savior, Creator, and Lord.  The road ahead is tough, yet we can go on, insyaAllah, with trust, hope and prayers to Him.


Well… I guess that’s the summary, on the whole… a very long entry this time.. (^_^)  as for pictures… I’ll upload them as soon as another facilitator is able to email them to me…  may all these life lessons be of use, to me, and also to all the readers.

>> Sorry for any mistakes in relying the events here… or for any other khilaf anywhere else, for that matter.  I’m just a humble servant of Him, still on the long road of self improvement… hence I welcome any comments and additions, etc. 

~Signing off…

Sunday, November 23, 2008

>> A Camp To Remember <<

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Well, I did say that one of my target for the holidays is to join camping and workshops… Well, here’s my first camp for the holidays.

I had tried to find more pics, but unfortunately, the pictures are mostly with a friend of mine who is currently busy with another workshop. I’ll upload other pictures ASAP, insyaAllah…

  • “Remember, we will have little food, less sleep, and we will feel tired. So be ready.”

One of the guys said this. A reminder to all the facilitators during our first meeting, the night before the 3 days 2 nights camp, Kem Kerlipan Bintang at SRK Sri Kampung, Kg Tengah, Renggam. This is a reminder which had been set on my mind. My personal aim during the camp? To let the students know the beauty of Islam, get closer to Allah, and at the same time, increase my own Faith and knowledge.

  • Breaking the ice

18th November: After setting up the school, readying it for the participants later on, I find myself wondering… how will the students be? Will I be able to befriend them? Will I be able to share Islam with them? From what their teacher told me, these kids come from different backgrounds. Some are from the nearby town, while others are from villages. Some of them are very good, while others have problems, such as smoking, sex and even alcohol. Hence admittedly, I am nervous.

Yet, Alhamdulillah, the day went well. The participants come, we had an ice-breaking session, intro-talk by the camp commander, and a talk by Cikgu Zamree. The talk was on self reflection, being thankful for what we have, and how much we have to thank our parents, for without them, we are not going to be who we are now… afterwards, there is a sharing moment with the facilitators at the field. Yup… the day went well, and us facilitators were happy, despite several hiccups along the way…

  • Sleeping is a Ni’mah (gift)!

Yes, it is. A gift which many tend to forget. Unless you are suddenly deprived of it. Like what I feel during the two nights I was there. A two hours sleep, for someone who normally sleeps like a log for 6 hours. Makes me think back for all the times I slept well, and really be thankful. Though Alhamdulillah, due to the early mind setting before the camp, I am able to go on, still feeling energetic despite the lack of sleep

~ the camp details… there are loads, but because of the time limit, I’ll end this post here…. There’ll be a ‘part two’ (which WILL be more interesting, insyaAllah) so… wait for it…